Broken

Hi all, I recently just got out of a very toxic relationship with my boyfriend of nine months. We started out great, it was very simple and almost innocent in the beginning. Shortly after we became exclusive, I noticed he was a very controlling boyfriend type. He claimed I was too protective over my phone, and would ask to see my messages. And he wouldn’t take no for an answer. He would show up at my apartment even if I told him not to, and at my job as well. I became pushed away by this behavior and cheated on him, about three months into the relationship. No, I will not excuse myself or my behavior. It was a mistake I regret very deeply. Yes, I know this all seems very early into the relationship and it was. Should have known things would crash and burn.
We broke up for 2 weeks after I cheated and then got back. Things were OK until our relationship became slightly long distance, and the roles reversed. I became the “crazy” one as he pulled away. Last weekend he took a girl home from the bar, but didn’t sleep with her. We decided to break up after that although I admit I’m having an extremely hard time.
My side of the relationship is this: this man manipulated me, controlled me, and tried with everything to mold me into the perfect girlfriend. As soon as I changed for him, he decided it was “too late” and “lost his feelings” for me.
I am hurt because despite all of this drama, we actually had a very, very deep emotional connection which is what kept us together. I am also angry, considering he forced so much of this on me and now wants to be the one to walk away from this like it’s nothing. Need advice