Emotionally drained

I will get straight to the point and try to not make this long. My man of a year and a half had been draining the life out of me. It’s a tough time right now and I have been trying my best to remain strong. This has been going on since April of this year non stop. He pushes me away and lashes out at me. I take it and still be there for him. Long story short it’s always literally about money. I give him money for whatever it is and he is good then boom it happens again and again. I saw him over the weekend and funky attitude he brought into my space but when he got the 200 cash from me he was good. Now here we are a few days later and he needs something else. When he goes through this he is so dang mean to me. He so distant and short with me. He is sort of a downer to be around. I guess I’m just a fixer and I truly love this man. But this hurts. I can’t even talk to him or vent to him, we always talk about his issues, i feel alone and drained. I feel if I don’t help I will suffer. I really really hope he is not playing me and manipulating me by acting this way because he knows what I will do for him. I’m just drained now. He is again being short and mean again. I try to talk to him and be there but he pays that no mind when I try to pour love and life into him. He perks the heck up with money though and acts like he doesn’t want it but iI know him. Am o being used and manipulated?