Ending my life…

SORROW: CALL YOUR LOCAL SUICIDE PREVENTION HOTLINE THIS MINUTE. PLEASE. YOU DONT’ WANT TO DO THIS. IF YOU TRY IT AND YOU FAIL YOU COULD SEVERELY INJURE YOURSELF. I KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO BE LOW, I’VE STRUGGLED WITH DEPRESSION AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS MOST OF THIS YEAR. I GOT PAST IT AND I’M SO HAPPY TO BE ALIVE. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PICK UP YOUR PHONE NOW WHEREVER YOU ARE AND DIAL. YOU ARE LOVED. THERE IS A REASON FOR YOU TO BE HERE EVEN IF IT DOESN’T FEEL LIKE IT. TAKING YOUR LIFE WON’T TAKE AWAY THE PAIN. YOU JUST WANT OUT OF THE PAIN, NOT TO DIE, THERE ARE OTHER WAYS TO DEAL WITH THE PAIN!!!!!

I am so rarely here and I just got on here 5 minutes ago for the heck of it… I’m glad I saw your post. We are all behind you and we don’t have to know you to send you love and light. Please answer back and tell us you called someone local for help.

I know it hurts. I’m sorry. But your life and your value do not hinge on one man.

I’m in England and we have the Samaritans, a 24/7 hotline anyone can call to talk confidentially about anything. If you are in the US you will have something similar – would you please Google that and call someone? We cannot help you much here. Please sweetheart. Do not harm yourself. There’s another life on the other side of this relationship, I promise.

Ms Sorrow – this is terrible, what you are going through right now is terrible. But how can you betray yourself like this? The dear sweet YOU..??? throw away your life because ONE person did not love you back? You are doing the same thing he did to you – only to YOURSELF.

The pain will be there for a long time, it is very very hard to bounce back from what you’ve experienced, but you need to look at it for what it is. This is ONE guy who did not feel for you the same way you felt for him. Your ego is hurt very badly. That is why you are in such pain. But your ego will recover, with time you will meet new love, and you will be able to recognize the right guy. It is most likely that you mistook this guy for the right one.

Do not confuse pain with love. Love is more quiet. You need to heal your ego, and this can be done through the realization that ONE person not being into us is ok. He was a jerk for not telling you the truth. The truth would have stung like crazy but your feelings would have been spared, you would not have felt so betrayed and so crushed.

It will be a time when you will not love someone back, then you will understand that it is only ONE time.

Start reading about how to recover and how to move on. Come to this forum and read as many threads as you can, you will probably see yourself in some of them.

Pull yourself together girl. It hurts like hell, but you owe it to yourself to get through it. Stop being a sissy, you are not the first one being betrayed.

Oh my God, girl go to a hospital right, PLEASE GET HELP! Trust me I have been there, although I never took active steps, I have had several cases in my life when I really did not want to continue and cried for days and suffered for many months, they can help you! Steph is right no one is worth this, not you dying over them, especially not this psycho, heartless, cruel animal , your ex.

Many times I could not eat. I have always had people to talk to but sometimes you feel too tired. That is the worst, medical help will help you!

Ok I tell you here more in detail a couple of my stories:

When my ex fiancee dumped me pretty much on the streets after my leaving my job and giving up everything for our big love and he cheated on me with his ex and got back together with her for fear of commitment after he had said he wanted a family too, I wanted to end my life I felt. He did this to me when I was pregnant and I miscarried that same day. I asked to be taken to the hospital and my family helped. I took medication and drank and I felt like cutting myself even if not to die but instead asked that they take me in. I had to anyhow as I had a miscarriage.

For days I cried nonstop, I tore out all my eyelashes and looked out the hospital window like I was in a ward, felt like I was a prisoner of his life, the feeling is indescribable. This monster came the next day even though everyone asked him not to if he only wants to torture me. He came and promised me everything and cried and poof he was gone and never talked to me again unless to scream at me to get my shit out of his house.

I was in the hospital for two months because I was afraid to be alone, it was good to get help and have understanding people and just people around me, I feared going back to my apartment which was hard when I did.

You have to have a reason to live, find one! To me it was my new career, my studies even though I mostly still did not feel like living, no one could make the pain go away, no one. It tooks many months, maybe even a couple of years to fully recover and I was dating like crazy to numb the pain and fell into the traps of a true psycho.

This year he is gone from my life too and I am ready to start a new life though broke in every sense but I am fighting and alive.

You may need medication to help you, in fact I am sure you do at the moment, it will help you realize that he is not worth your dying at all.

Please please I beg you to go to the hospital. Let us know ok? We are with you and here for you and there are people that love you!

Stefanie, I am saying what I believe IS GOING TO HELP HER. I’ve been in such a state myself. If you have something else to say that you think will help, do so.

Maria: calling someone you don’t know a sissy because they are suicidal is not helpful by a long shot. I’ve reported to the admin.

I won’t address you further.

Can you please reply to these comments so that we know you are reading them?

Putting any personal information on the threads here will make it findable on Google search. It’s anonymous here for good reasons.

Sorrow, please tell us you have called someone – used the number Michele gave or called someone locally?? We are all worried for you.

Ms Sorrow – if oyu type your phone number with a lot of spaces in between in each digit, it won’t be recognizable on search engines.

You owe it to yourself to stay strong right now. We are here with you, so stay with us. We will walk you through. Many of us been in a similar state and we recovered and found joy later on

Am I stupid to feel this way? I’m beautiful but she is attractive. I belong to a lower staff in the department while she got the best career so he chooses her without considering what I gave, I give everything each day of my life to make him happy with me but all was taken for granted

Sorrow you need professional help now, to help you through this unbearable pain. It is not within and under your control now. You will be able to work through it later but first you need someone to really help you. Can you call anyone, a friend a family member to take you to the hospital please? I beg you this is really important.

Although I have been through a lot I never tried to commit suicide but my sister did. You are worth a lot more than this man. I know it is hard to think this way now but you are loved, we all are here to pull for you and to get you through this.

Now you cannot talk, you are crying non-stop and cannot handle the pain as it has taken over you, you need a way in the hospital where they will calm you down enough so you can start thinking and talking about it.

Let us know please, have you called anyone? Please please do.