Ending my life…

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

No human being is worth ending your life, you have too much to offer the world.

I hope you find a therapist and heal.

I’m thinking of you.

I still have to read all the responses Ms Sorrow but besides the two examples I also had a guy cheat on me after living together for almost 6 years and finding out he had an affair and then he drove me crazy going back and forth for months which escalated into a very bad situation. It is better for you that he is gone now! Cheating is one of the worst forms of betrayal. Even when I was with my ex husband who was really mental while it took me a year to close it which you know ended very badly, I still did not date the person I loved by that time because I felt that it would not have been honest. A person this cruel does not deserve you!

About alcohol, the reason it is not a great idea besides maybe a glass is because it blurs your sense of reality. It was then when I also felt like I did not want to live anymore.

It also happened another time that I was so upset that I drank and while it knocked me out I woke up after an hour to horrid anxiety. The withdrawal symptoms can be really awful.

How are you doing now? I know this can be a vicious cycle and you can sink back into depression which is why I hope you can get therapy, it can be incredibly helpful.

RCS is right, when you are in this state of mind, you cannot see reality, you think that being alone, being unloved, unworthy, etc. are true, none of this is actually true, it is your sadness, depression that deceive you because sometimes the brain shits under severe trauma and pain.

Please keep us posted, ok? We look forward to hearing from you.

My dear Stefanie
Oh yes, I think I should change my name here as Ms. Hopeful. Thank you.

My dear Leila
Thank you for your support. I can feel how much strong you are as a woman. Like all other ladies here who came here to help me while I’m struggling from depression.

Thank you Mr. Eric Charles!!!
This forum of ANM truly helps. The ladies who came for me the night when I wanted to end my life. And now I’m starting to changed to a new me after what happened. Nobody left me here. All of the ladies who knew about my post was so eager to help. They stayed to hear about me. I was tearing again to realize my mistake and that how much I am valued as a person. Your advice is very helpful not only in my case but to all ladies and people who need it. Thank you so much. More powers and God bless.

My dear Jenny
Yes sweetie, I’ll try to get myself better as sooner as possible. Thank you for being here.

Hiya. I came across this late but i just want to add. This guy is not God, God only decides when someone lives and dies so do not give this power to some lameass guy. I been there myself when I thought my life was shit without a certain guy but that is nonsense. Life is wonderful, colourful, embrace it, sometimes the darkest days are before dawn and this is your dawn. Find several things every day to be grateful for and live in a state of appreciation and you will be sent more and more to appreciate on a daily basis. If you feel yourself slipping down the depressed and feeling hopeless route just say this as a mantra to yourself it really works. “you guys name are not the boss of me I can feel good and have a great life and i dont need you to make me happy i can do that for myself, I can feel good in the blink of an eye” Say it over and over until it kicks in to your subconscious and you know what u can feel better instantly. Its all about being in charge of your emotions and not letting them be in charge of you. Have a look on amazon at books on emotional intelligence, they really helped me no end. Good luck and let us know how you go with this. x

Three cheers for our new Ms Hopeful!!

Oh, BTW I did want to add that I very much agree with Eric that drugs are not ideal on the long run and I am saying this coming from a family in the field who do believe in meds for extended periods. In my experience and I was once on antidepressants for about 3 years, they do not work long-term because they simply supress emotions good and bad and thereby make you sort of unable to feel. They can also make you too carefree sort of in an artifical way where you give up taking care of problems and do not really deal with the problems you need to be dealing with. Even when I get depressed for shorter periods of time and women can due to hormones too have a day or two of depressive mood, I want to solve it myself and work it out within myself. But when negative emotions run high of course meds are an absolute must for a while and the therapist can decide what combination is the best course of action.

Antidepressants can also make symptoms worse at first and they usually do, much worse. They are to be combined with antianxiety meds in the short run. I do take antianxiety at times, not every single day. They can help when you are going through an especially rough period.

The long-term solution lies in nothing but within yourself. You are the master of your destiny, your moods but there are just times when the brain shits enough that you do need short term therapy, which can be combination of meds and other therapeutical forms. I think you will do fine soon but obviously when suicidal thoughts are involved a short course of treatment is necessary. I too took antianxiety meds every day after trauma for a while.

Eventually you will learn to manage the problem and the pain but sometimes the pain is just too strong to be dealt with right away, that is where meds do come in. Meds are like crutches, even docs will tell you, you still need to do the major work yourself.

I will use my new name soon my dear Stefanie, thank you.

Dear Amy S.
Thank you. I’m glad you are here too with other ladies who keep supporting me with all their hearts. From the moment I was in a nightmare of my life. I feel better now.

Thanks a lot to you my sister, Jessica. Love you.

Ms. Sorrow,
I saw this thread a few days ago. To see the overwhelming responses and support really makes me happy. I’m so glad that you are on a brighter path.

Well wishes to you and I hope one day you find someone special.

Take are!