Everything is Changing and I cannot keep up

I apologize this being long just in case.

I just graduated college about two months ago (i am only 22) after a year of zoom hell with covid and prior to that I did get to complete a great remote internship for 6 months in the peak of the pandemic. this year with cities being shut down and everything really exhausted me especially with completing my senior year online and my senior thesis getting cancelled. My dad has been on and off chemo since I started college, i have lost a lot of friends (due to them moving home, and or just simply not seeing them enough), got a diagnosis of adenomyosis and endometriosis last year. My grandfather died which causes a domino effect of other estate issues. Its been a lot. I have been out with 7 different dudes in the past year and a half and only a few of them got past the second date then faded into nothing (and I am pretty stable regarding all that has happened..most of the guys either love bombed me which i called out on, or clearly just wanted to have sex…which i did not).

LITERALLY on the day of graduation, I woke up to a recruiter at a large media company reaching out to me regarding a position I applied for and after a long two month process (this was the same company i got to do my internship with last year) and a supervisor recommendation, i accepted a great first post grad gig with this company. the hours are insanely wacky, its 2pm-11pm wed thurs then 11pm-8am friday and saturday (dealing with the news) my sleep schedule is going to be semi wrecked and i luckily am working remotely from home, but i am also leaving the city i went to college in. I am moving back home to do my job at least through the fall and then maybe if everything is still kinda wonky at home, I will try to find an apartment back in the city (also just for sanity. I want to mingle and such, but again…when working overnight shifts on friday and saturday how am i supposed to do that anyways?)

I am about to start a great job, yet will have to endure a strict sleeping schedule, lose time socially (i have no friends at home, let alone cant really go out on the weekends)so at this same time im gonna be making great money immediately after graduation for a big company, and network, etc, but…im going to feel so extremely isolated. This job is only for a year which is why I am taking it, and told myself while im thinking clearly i will never do these night shifts again–only doing it for this year.

I am unsure if im making the right decision with these hours, I could get an easier hourly position but it probably would not pay as much as this, or a such a big name on my resume, or i would not feel as challenged. My dating/sex life was already nonexistent (i had sex with the same guy within 6 months and both times he finished within a minute…it was a lot of hype with no payoff at all). The few guys i hit it off with simply wouldn’t make time for me and only wanted to be friends with benefits. I just feel so alone and unsure if I am ready for this grind. I keep telling myself its only a year. I am always handling family stuff and now dealing with a full time job and a wacky sleeping schedule all I really hope is that I am able to sleep, and then exercise and keep healthy. That is how low my bar is. I don’t even know how I could date with this.

I did have a guy reach back out to me who was looking for something serious we just got into debates all the time so it was a mutual way to end things, but since he has reached back out I am willing to give it a shot again, as we do have similar interests I feel like we are just two strong personalities. Another guy my sister is trying to set me up with but he seems kind of shy, but lives close to where I live at home outside of the city, and I might be seeing him Sunday and part of me just wanted to say YOLO and just give him my number (for friend purposes) cause I know I am going to feel socially isolated (my girl friends will be at home in other states, or some of them still completing school).

I appreciate any advice regarding the job, dating, life in general at this point. I really trust you people on here and has really lifted me up when I have felt crappy. Thank you.