Fiancé Abandoned Me

Hi how are you? I am so sorry this might seem all over the place I’m just a wreck so please bare with me if you can. Thank you in advance.

I am going through a really tough time right now. My fiancé has practically abandoned me after 8 years, 1 year of that we’ve been engaged. I am broken and he is literally ignoring all my phone calls and text messages. He has always had a calm demeanor but it slowly started to seem like he just didn’t care as much as I did and I overlooked it for a long time to make things work and thought I was overthinking it. I don’t know if this is what I deserve because I chose to ignore that sign or what but I’m just lost. And when I say abandoned I mean he literally is risking his life during this pandemic to go and do deliveries for his business just so he doesn’t have to deal with me and our issues. Why am I still calling and texting someone that is showing me in my face that they don’t want me or this?

He leaves in the morning and doesn’t come back until it’s time to sleep and he refuses to talk. I just want to disappear because it seems like it’s what he wants. And the only reason I know he’s at work is because he gets up early and pushes out all his inventory and comes back with nothing and everyone tags him in posts on social media thanking him for their plates. Other than that I would think he was cheating. As you can tell by now. another issue, trust! I am at a standstill I don’t know a life without him we’ve been together since I was 16 years. I’m so hurt that someone I thought I knew could just quit on me like I’m nothing.

I am so hurt. He ignores my text messages when I express my feelings and if he does respond he ignores what I say. He keeps telling me I complain and make him feel like I’ll be better off without him and I never said that, we just have a LOT of unsolved issues. Here’s an example of the most recent message he sent.

“I wasn’t working to forget you, I was working to clear my head. This isn’t easy for me. Us not being good effects me more than you’ll ever know. I’m sorry.

But I swear this doesn’t seem like it. He makes me feel worthless I texted him so much and he barely responded. Yesterday he said he would make time for me, I waited by the phone until midnight and kept calling until I got an answer and he fell asleep. Woke up this morning didn’t acknowledge me at all. After 8 years I’m not worth fighting for? I’m not worth an ounce of effort? It feels like my heart is ripped out and he’s squeezing and watching me gasp for air. I don’t know what to do I will never be able to get over the fact that he was even capable of doing this to me. What do I do? I love him so much and I don’t know a life without him we’ve been together since I was 16.