He lost interest

i felt he was starting to pull away and I don’t blame him. I had only just come out of an abusive relationship when we met and I had serious trust issues, he was a narcissist.
Me and this guy chatted for 9 weeks and got on so well. He lived over 2 hours away so we decided to met. We got on well but I just couldn’t relax with him. When he went out one time he said he left his phone at home hence why I heard nothing from him made me panic I had again picked another womaniser. I was accusary and reactive towards him. We saw each other again 2 weeks later on the day my mum died. I just wanted to see him and just have one normal weekend before it sank into me the enormous loss of my mum. I went downhill as you can imagine. He went out the weekend of my mum’s funeral and I didnt hear much feom him. He text but never called like he promised. He was supposed to see me for a long weekend but he cancelled i said I need some space to whixh he agreed and he needs to think about why you have made no effort for me. He said we wont work as we are and you you are right I should have made an effort and Indeserve better. I left him to it. Then he constantly text me and said he made a nistake. We spoke the day after and it wasn’t a great conversation and we hadn’t spoken since. I deleted him out of my phone. This was 8 days ago. We were together/talking for 3 months. I feel I have lost a friend in a time when I need my friends. I don’t know whether to leave this as it is or message?