He said he was not interested after 6 months and a terminated pregnancy

We met on Bumble, he was the sweetest guy who drove an hour to pick me, drove another to a place I told him I liked and dropped me back home. We spoke the same language and had similar cultural backgrounds. Four weeks into dating he seemed to pull back a little but at the time I found out I was pregnant. Since the relationship was so new and we were not ready we decided to terminate the pregnancy which was one of the hardest things I had to do in life. He spent one night with me during the process to take care of me and then didn’t visit me for 2 weeks. He blamed it on the new business he started and I believed him. Because how can a guy who was so caring lie at such a difficult time.
Later visits started becoming once in three weeks and phone calls were very late at night for about 20 mins with him talking about his work. He has literally taken me out on two dates the first date and he took me out on my birthday but we ended up driving and ordered take away food and spent time at my place. I even found his bumble profile updated and asked him about it and he said his friend did it without his knowledge (which I believed).I really thought he loved me and I trusted everything he said.
Untill this Sunday when I started asking him a lot of questions about why he doesn’t text me or return my calls. He then finally broke and said it was because he lost interest in me, couldn’t feel me anymore and was trying to love me. He also said the only way he could be with me was when he was drunk and now thinking about how we spent time he would come over to my place late at Friday or Saturday night. We would drink have fun and he would leave in the morning by 8 o clock because he was busy.
My heart broke into pieces, I thought he loved me ( because we said it to each other) and trusted him when he said he was busy with his new business. Now I have come to realise I misssed all the red flags and blindly believed someone and spent 6 months of my life waiting on someone to change so we could be happy together.
After what he said, I didn’t have much to tell him. I just asked him if he was with me for the 4 months after my pregnancy out of pity, thanked him for atleast telling me now wished him well for his business and hung up the phone. I deleted his contact, messages and threw out all his things.
I feel awful for blindly believing someone and being naïve, especially considering I am back at dating after 7 years of being single. There is this awful feeling that he realises what he has done and come running back to me. But in reality I know he wont and I don’t want him to aswell. It is just a hard situation I am dealing with where someone meant the world to me and I was nothing but a late night 20 mins phone call.
Any advice on how to get over this awful situation without doubting myself and feeling unworthy is welcome.