He thinks I’m crazy

Long distance casual thing. Met through my relative. He pursued me made plans to visit after 2 weeks of talking. After a month we did hook up when i was back in his town to visit family. He called daily, sent pics of him out and about. For one year! He would call in the morning before work and after. I enjoyed it but we agreed to go with the flow, be fully honest, especially if we saw other people and if this starts to fade to not go silent. We said we were just friends. My relatives started to not think highly of him and i spoke to her daily and we were so close so i did tell her about him and i. For a year all was well and i told her we are friends and he could do his thing there and i can do the same. She didn’t agree with my actions but i kept telling her I’m having fun! No pressure! Him and i ended some very long term relationships a during covid and we both were just going slow and said we were Friends. I started visiting a lil more and would spend some nights with him and dinner and she didn’t seem to care. Then i go end of June for her engagement dinner and i go out with him after meet his best friend who hugged me and knew so much about me. We did get in our first drunk fight Ava our was really dumb but the next day he came over and we had breakfast at the hotel where the Engagement diner was. I go do family stuff that day and stay with him that night. Then i stay another day and do family stuff only. He called before i left to make plans to visit me.
I get back in town blocked! Find out from her sister that she was so mad at me for not making the visit about her and seeing him that she called him and told him a bunch stuff making me sound crazy i was told. Omg! We are all over 40. I called him from work bc i was blocked and he tells me he’s over the drama and that we are just friends and i shouldn’t think more and we don’t need to talk daily, etc. i told him the same that i didn’t think more and he was lied to. So it starts to fade but then he starts calling and i find out more of what they said so i told him i knew what they did and he should’ve given me the benefit that we were having fun and i never called him my bf! So we talk a few more times and i did tell him how hurt i was by then and him. So i go back to texting the funny meme he used to like and sending him pics which he did heart a few weeks ago. But he stopped calling me back and no texts. Friendly texts i send. Then I’m blocked again! We haven’t spoke since end of august. So i blocked my number and left a msg asking if could chat about stuff. He texts me that he got my msg, been busy doesn’t have time to chat And to take care!wtf! I went emotionaly after this. Texting him asking for a call bc i deserve that and wtf of going on. He said we both need to move in that he has other priorities that are His commitments now and take care. So knowing better i call and I’m blocked and vm says that it’s sh**ty to text that then block bc you don’t want a response and i deserved a call. And also knowing better i email him! I didn’t understand and moving on from what, if we are just friends. I told him i know i didn’t handle stuff well after i last saw him but being shut out by then and him really got my anxiety up. I deserved the benefit. I totally word vomit but was nice. He replied asking me not to contact him. So i replied, knowing better! Still word vomit. More emotional. But nice even telling him about my new job. And said that i didn’t want either one of us to regret not staying friends i always said if this didn’t work we made good friends. And he shouldnt listen to others. If i did i prob wouldn’t have even talked to him.
He keeps replying with same thing that i need to see his view and what’s to not understand. So beck and forth and then he says I’m really crazy and need to stop. Ugh
So i tell him maybe he crazy but it’s not crazy bc my feelings are valid…i still word vomit and even apologized knowing better. He finally says I’m really crazy and he doesn’t have time to deal with this crazy sh*t and he won’t contact me again. I’m an emotional wreck so i send a few more emails just shocked bc we agreed to be honest and i still don’t get his viewbc he’s not saying much. No response so then i call omg! Telling him he won’t hear from me again and he was one of my favorite people and i just wanted a call so i word vomited. I was expecting him to say something mature and nice.
So this happened this week and i know better and wish i would’ve back off but instead of telling him off which i normally would do i choose to be nice. But now he thinks I’m crazy. I don’t see how this can be so easy for him. We spoke daily. I don’t speak to my cousin and i think what she did is unforgivable. But she’s did this to her sister when she got mad. We are all over 40 and talking daily him and i we’re getting close and he seemed like he wanted more. His friends were even taking him up how great of a guy he is. Referred to me as his girl that night.
I’m so hurt but mostly i hate he thinks I’m crazy and i don’t get a chance to prove I’m not. I’m sad shocked mad betrayed. Suddenly he wants nothing to do with me. Can someone tell me wtf happened?