I feel used

I’ve been with my guy for almost a year now and things were good. We have our ups and downs but there has been a constant down now. Looking back and reflecting I honestly feel that I am being used and I am buying his love. I am a good hearted person and I will give my last to help someone. He quit his job and for months was trying to find a new one. He was depressed but during his hard time I made sure to be supportive and there for him on anyway I needed to be. He found a new job and it’s looking up for him. Writing this I feel so stupid now I see on paper the things I’ve done for him. He bought a $200 pair of shoes a couple weeks after he quit. Smh. I gave him the $200 back so he will be good. Smh (dumb, I know). I took him grocery shopping and gave him cash time after time. It maybe summed up to be almost $1000 all together. Looking back now I noticed when he got something from me those were the only times that he was nice, he was loving, caring, attentive, affectionate towards me. If I didn’t have it the mean, short temper came out. I craved his love so bad I would dig into my pockets to get it back. Today when I spoke to him I asked if he could just call me more, not just text me. I wanted that connection. He yelled “I said ok, all you wanna do is continue to drag it out, I said ok damn” I got off the phone and left it at that. I didn’t call back for the remainder of the day and still won’t. It’s like he only wants to talk sweet to me when I give him something. All I get is one or two text throughout the day. Smh. I feel neglected and undervalued. My weight is very low and unhealthy because of the stress. What can I do for him to just see me and love me and not just my money or gifts. This hurts. I’m so sorry for it being long but I just needed to vent and some nonjudgmental advice. Thank you all in advance. God bless.