I know this breakup was a blessing

After 5 years together, he broke up with me on Saturday night. He didn’t even want to fight for us.
To be honest I was thinking of ending it too, but I wanted to fight for us. We lived together, I had secured a place to go if we broke up.
When he said “its just not working” I told him I would pack what I could and leave that night. I do not think he was expecting that.

It has not even been 72 hours, and my head is not flooded with these amazing memories. All I can think of are his comments about other woman and how he could pick them up so much easier, or how my weight is an issue, or how sometimes during sex he had to look away because of my stomach.
Why didn’t I love myself enough to leave then? Seeing him chatting with other girls?
I learned a lot, I learned that is not what I need or deserve. I have been crying more over the dog than I am him.
But damn, it still hurts.
I know, and not justifying his mean comments where more about him then me. The fear of feeling unwanted made me want to hold on tighter.
My work had been bad for a few years, caused a lot of stress in my life… he said it was hard on him. But lets not talk about how his issues, or stresses were great to keep talking about.
Joke is on him tho, I have been losing weight, down 12.5 since I last weighed myself (note, i was 200 at my heaviest), I have an interview for an amazing new job. I never sold my condo, I also rented it furnished. Gave my tenant notice, so I will be back in a month or two, he was so kind when I told him what happened. My friend who is letting me stay for free in their empty basement suite said he will help do some renos at mine to make it more special to go home to.

I would have stayed and fought, but him letting me go, feels like I am about to be launched into the most amazing next chapter. As I focus on mind, body and soul… wow.. what Will I accomplish