I need serious help

Okay, brace yourselves.

I met this guy 5 years ago. I was in an abusive marriage at the time and was trying to find a way out. Began talking to this guy in my separation and we hooked up. He would drive to see me 3 hours both ways often. We would talk all day everyday. He had pet names, texted me good morning every night. We would talk on the phone. All that jazz. Then one day, I told him I loved him and he told me that he couldn’t be that with me at the time and cried and that was that. A couple months later, it started again. Got pregnant. Had a miscarriage. Went through all of that with him and again he eventually stopped talking to me again. Then started back up a few months later…at this time I was officially divorced and he said he couldn’t have a relationship with me bc he felt guilty and he knew my ex…anyway…same done and dance for years…this last time we talked for 5 months straight. I knew all of everything about him and he knew about me. We met up. Made plans to meet up again and he cancelled. However, this was the anniversary of when his dad passed away and he said he wanted to spend the weekend with his mom which I totally understand. It’s been a week since I have heard from him though. My last text was basically me telling him I was here for him if he needed anything and I heard nothing. I don’t know what to do. The last time we were together, it was for a whole weekend and he especially said how fun it was and was begging to see me again but this happened. This back and forth has me so confused and emotionally exhausted. I even told him so and that I cannot deal with this and for him to just be honest if this is just never going to be a thing. He of course apologized and agreed. But here I am…probably over analyzing things. Advice?