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Clare
My friend has been inviting me to hang out with his teammates & a few fans when they are playing football. That is when a certain guy saw me and asked for my number. I didn’t meet him outside of the group hangout until recently. He got a 2 months job outside of town; he invited me over and I went. I was there for 2 weeks.
During the 2 weeks stay, he was sweet & progressed to tell me he loves me. He introduced me to his friends via video chat & to his mum over the weekend. This time around, I decided to hold onto sex for a few weeks & I told him that I would have sex when it was right. He agreed, but he would keep nagging me for sex & sadly, I let him masturbate on my body. I started overthinking if all this was for real or it was just for sex, so I decided to head back home. He is staying at a bnb, so the cleaning lady came by before I left. We started having a casual conversation, and that’s when she told me that the day before I came, there was another smaller girl who had been with this guy for a few days, and she believed that there would be another one after me. She described the smaller girl as very shy, naivé, very young, and seemed to be a teen. My heart sank! The guy is 23, I am 24.
Now, I have 3 feelings here:
1. I am happy that I held onto sex, so I’m not emotionally entangled (coz, unfortunately, that’s what happens to me).
2. I feel stupid for having traveled 6 hours to meet him & stayed for 2 weeks, yet he wasn’t the to-be boyfriend I was hoping for. (We had been progressively talking for a month). How is it that I think I’m healed, and that I’ve done the inner work, yet I attract such guys? By telling me the L word and introducing me to his mom, family, and friends, it felt special.
3. I fear for the reputation of being associated with him. People don’t know, but his gossip queen female cousin, who he told I was with him, will definitely start telling people. So, I feel like I have two choices here:
A: take the higher road, and ignore what people think of me being one of ‘his numbers’. Just tell him that we just can’t workout and just let it be.
PS: when he’s back, we will be seeing each other at the hangouts, so…yeah. Plus he could maybe be a useful resource as a job contact, but as a friend???
B: call him and tell him that I know about the younger girl he was with the day before I came, so he can no longer love me. Also, tell him that I will not be associated with his reputation, so he should tell his buddies that we weren’t together or I will tell them myself when I meet up with them and they ask about us. Choice B is for me disassociating myself from him & even denying having slept there & just say that I was passing by on my way to a wedding (a wedding that I actually went to while there).What do you think I should choose? A/B?
Lastly, I feel depressed because I’ve been doing the inner work, yet I fell for such a man. Maybe you can recommend books, podcasts, or any material to support me in my level-up journey. Thank you so much for your input.
KayaLearn to set some outer boundaries with men. You traveled 6 hours and went to live with him for two weeks after talking with him for a month? Girl, no. That’s foolish and naive. Your inner work isn’t working. That’s pretty needy behavior. Overthinking? No that was your gut telling you it wasn’t real, because it wasn’t. He told you what he thought you needed to hear to have sex with him. You didn’t think you could stay in the same room with him and completely avoid any sexual activity, did you? You have to be aware that someone telling you he loves him after a few weeks can’t possibly be real. So what if he introduced you around. You were a willing participant in this scene so what is you want to do about it now? So what if he had another girl there before you? That doesn’t matter. How did you leave it with him? Quit worrying about what his cousin or anyone else will say. You were there, no point in lying about it. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks or says.
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