It feels like him (37M) and I (29F) got off on the wrong foot due to my anxiety.

I (29F) matched with guy (37M) on hinge. We really hit it off and exchanged details and chatted off the app. He told me he was looking to meet someone special and I told him that while I am definitely open to this with the right person, I also have had an unfortunate experience having been through an abusive relationship a year ago and that this is my first time putting myself out there, so I’d would like take my time to get to know someone (quite a bit of an overshare on my part looking back). I was suprised to find he was really supportive and kind about it and somehow this seemed to make him more interested in me, as he immediately asked me out to go for a walk during the week. We agreed on meeting at a date and time.

As the week went by, I didn’t hear from him to confirm and I was also super busy with work, so I didn’t think to confirm either (also, he was the one to ask me out). Then half an hour before we were supposed to meet up, he asked if I was still good to meet. I needed some extra time to get dressed, eat something and commute, so I apologised profusely that I got carried away with time and asked if we could meet 1 hour later than we had planned. He said he had to be somewhere and couldnt meet an hour later and seemed a bit sulky about it. I apologised again, offered the day after or during the weekend and he said he didn’t wish to do it on any of these days as he weather wouldn’t be good for the walk. I got frustrated and sent him a message saying that I dont think it is fair that he is annoyed with me, considering he asked me out and only confirmed half an hour before meeting. I then immediately unsent the message, as I realised it was immature and impulsive on my part. He then responded saying he didn’t get to see the message I wrote and I lied and told him that it was intended for a friend and I sent it to him by accident, to which he responded that he only saw the first part of it and it sounded ‘abrasive’. I insisted that it wasn’t and it was intended for a friend, but I apologise if it came off that way.

Two days passed and it was a really nice day and I asked him if he’d be keen to meet up to go for the walk. He then went on to say that he doesnt wish to, as it might rain. I got frustrated again and said that I am getting mixed signals and that this isn’t for me, but I do wish him the best. He then said “isnt this the message you sent me the otherday that you unsent”. I told him that I didn’t wish to have to explain myself any further about that. He then went on to say that he just wants to make sure the weather is good for meeting up and he was hoping we could meet during the week when it improves. I apologised for being rude and said that I am not a very spontaneous person and am quite busy, so I prefer to make plans. He then questioned me, saying that me asking him to go for a walk that day was pretty spontaneous. I confessed that I am feeling a quite anxious dating for the first time and while it isn’t his responsibility, I am finding this a bit hard to navigate this and it might be best that he give me a call some time to talk about it further as things can get complicated when texting. He agreed with this and said he would give me a call sometime to talk.

A couple of days has passed and I haven’t heard from him and I feel like I have completely screwed myself over with this guy. Is he just letting me down nicely?