LDR Friendship to something that I don't even know how to define…

To give some of the backstory: I am a gamer, and so is he. We met because of mutual friends on an online mmo and hit it off rather well and are still talking to this day because we have a lot in common. At the time that we met, I was rather closed off to the possibility of dating thanks to an ex of mine who I had not been with for a year and half at the time of meeting this person ( I’ll give guy I met the initial of K). And we both have had traumatic relationships in the past… I’ve been married and divorced because of the ex-hubby being abusive and he’s had a lot of relationships where the girl cheated on him with another. So trust is a super fragile thing for the both of us and no we haven’t met because of the lockdown on corona. But the mutual friend of ours would talk with me in the chat about past issues I’ve had in relationships with him in there being quiet so that he would understand that my stuff was not based upon him but what others have done to me.

Now K and I get a long great although there have been quite a few hiccups in the road, aka family death of someone he was super close to and then him just pulling away from the situation between us. We were flirting between do we come out to our friends or no…we didn’t at the time and then split up for a bit because we both needed the space and I also had to resolve some past trauma that has happened to me which is in the process of getting there.

I’ve had the hard talks with K over stuff. Heck, I’ve was told that I’m family but more then family to him. He’s told me that he’s not going to leave and I believe that. I just feel confused half the time because he’s there and then not sometimes and I don’t force the issue because I know that trying to force that talk takes away a lot from both of us trusting each other.

Since we took that break and then he asked me randomly out of the blue to lets start talking again and see where it goes back in July. To now, we chat online almost everyday and text each other alot but I am still uncertain on if he really wants a relationship or if I am someone he’s playing a game with to boost his own ego. And yes we do plan to meet once the all clear has been given on corona and all of that since I have health issues that if I contracted the virus, I most likely would not survive hence the reason why we haven’t yet.

To be frank, I was never the one to intiate the relationship between us, I liked him but he was the one who made the first moves in all of this, I guess I am asking for the advice on if there is something there other then friendship on his part or am I completely overthinking everything in my head. Halp!