Leaving for the Army – don't want to let go of him.

This is a really hard post to write and sorry it’s long. Everything in me is telling me to let him GO.

I met him 3 weeks ago at my sister’s party. They are very good friends as he plays on her boyfriends hockey team. I’ve been to a few games, and knew who he was, but I never in a million years thought I’d have feelings for him, let alone be in this dilemma. Before you jump on me for it only being 3 weeks, just know that I am well aware, and that this problem I’m in is stemming mostly from my feelings towards him. If I think about it objectively it makes no sense. I have no idea why in my last days of civilian life, I’m worrying about a man I just met. I just don’t know what to do.

We’ve spent a lot of time together since we met. He introduced me to his sons (8 and 4) and the 4 of us spent the whole day together on Sunday just having a blast. I even carried the 4 year old inside from my car while he slept on my shoulder and put him into bed (which made me feel some mom-like feelings I’ve never felt before).I met his mom twice, and she said she wishes we had met sooner. She told me about a conversation they had about me and said he wants to be with me, but that he doesn’t see that happening if I’m leaving. He and I then had a conversation last night and he told me the same thing. He was in the Army for 4 years and he said it broke up his marriage because he was never around. He didn’t want to do that with me. We fit so well together. Our humor is the same, he treats me like a queen, our sex is to die for, we genuinely want to be around each other, and when I look at him, I for sure see a potential partner. I drank the cool-aid. I’m nuts for this guy.

I’m 23, and I just don’t see a future in the legal field anymore. I found a super badass job in the Army where I get to travel, learn a new language, and pretty much start over with a huge signing bonus and a ton of new life tools. I know I’ll be surrounded by a gigantic new pool of eligible bachelors, and that assuming we would survive as a couple at all is naive and selfish. But everything in me is screaming “Why are you letting him slip away?!!” He’s 28. In 5 years when I’m discharged, he’ll have found someone else. And maybe I will have too. I’m having a really hard time coming to terms with this. Please don’t be mean. I just need encouragement since I have to say goodbye to him and everyone in 10 days, on my birthday nonetheless.