My Ex Reached Out..Again

So my ex and I broke up around a year ago this time back in April of 2019. This was both of our first serious relationship, and it was intense, lasted about six months. I was absolutely heartbroken, and he said it was my fault the relationship got stale, called me “too easy” whenever I wanted to have sex with him, complete and utter misogynist, he stopped communicating basic things with me, and I gave so much to him and got so little back. Just trying to clear why the relationship failed, and my needs were NOT being met whatsoever. Obviously, looking back after a year, I wish the relationship ended sooner, he was a loser, and I barely think about it.

The first time he reached out to me was in November 2019, wanting to apologize to me in person. I was fuming when he first reached out, but Whatever we did that, talk was good, moved forward. Was seeing someone else and we hit it off really well, so was not thinking about ex AT ALL, just absolutely irrelevant and incredibly indifferent. A week later he texts me asking me out for coffee as “friends”. I shut him down and call him out. Whatever he got the message didn’t reach out again, until a few days ago asking how I am doing in this quarantine. I reply, small talk, polite, if anything I feel pity for the dude. Convo ends, I leave him on read.

Yesterday, he reaches out AGAIN, saying he wants to ask me a question that has been on his mind for months and if I am okay with it. I say ok just shoot. He asks me if I “ever miss us”, and I politely say “No”. And then he writes me AN ESSAY about ever since we met its been eating him alive about how much he misses being with me. And that the way he ended things was lazy, childish and he was majorly depressed and blamed the relationship for causing it, only to realize that it was the “best thing to ever happen to him”. This guy literally DRAINED me. I was crying constantly in this relationship, yet he had the audacity to say we were “happy”. I told him off AGAIN, and said how I have tried my best to be amicable. And then he says “You know what? I needed to hear that. What I said was incredibly seflish and brought unneeded things back onto the table”. I’m like uhhh YEAH.

I havent thought about him in ages. This was so irrelevant, and I just can’t believe after a YEAR of which he BROKE UP WITH ME he is still saying how he misses me. Like I have had better relationships (smaller ones but still, better connections) since him with men that reached my standards, and when those ended it hurt so much more than when me and this jerk broke up. Obviously I didn’t share any of these relationships to him, but it put myself into perspective. End of story: I blocked his number!