Nothing ever happens

Saying “No” used always be my undoing. I used to feel bad doing it but now …. its become easier. I am still struggling with it though esp if it is family or really good friends. Acquaintances – no problem …

My LO is still in daycare and was trying to convince my mom to convince me to let her stay home today LOL. My older one was excited to go to school. Her bday is next week and we have been planning a “make up” party for her. Got the whole nine yards already – nail polish, child friendly make up, lip glosses, dress up clothes and shoes. She wants to have a fashion show at the house as well … so lets see :)

FWB has always been a really good kisser and I am looking forward to those kisses. He is better than anyone I have ever kissed (new guy included) so I don’t know if that is going to be the deciding point ;) . I’ve told him that he needs to give classes ;) We are going for a movie and may meet up a bit before the movie in the parking lot depending on when my daughter’s bus arrives. So its not going to be straight to the bedroom RFOL. Anyway my house is off limits as long as my parents are visiting so even if we decide to go further it would have to be at his after the movie …. so lets see. I am curious as to whether my barriers would have come up again with regards to him though.

I’m meeting another guy on Friday for the 1st time … lets see how it goes :)

Vi – my FWB was great … just didn’t enjoy the sex with him (only love foreplay and fooling around) which was fine with me. I started dating this other guy in June and broke things off with my FWB as I am not comfy getting physical with two guys at the same time. Now that the new guy and I have broken up, my fwb contacted me and we are meeting today after 2 months. We stopped being physical with each other almost 3.5 months ago. He was really really busy in the summer and we couldn’t find time where our schedules co-incided. He is not dating anyone and neither am I. He would love to start the old arrangement and I am kind of considering it. I guess today’s meeting will decide for me if I still want to or not. But I am concerned whether my old barriers which he helped get rid off will come back again or not? He still owes me a bbq and I kind of tease him about it.

How are you doing Vi?? I am glad S is out of your system … :D

Sherri, nice to hear from you. Tam is doing fine. We email each other frequently (she gets to hear all the party/ex details that are too juicy to mention in here lol)…

Harley, I forgot, your color is green and your smell is also green, as in green tea or the smell of a green garden or freshly mown grass etc. It is a color/smell for comfort and strength and growth.

Serena, Ann it does take time and energy to do a reading, so I might do yours in a couple of days or next week. I hope that’s OK!?

Yes, it makes sense Vi, just surrender to who you are and embrace and love every bit of you – light and dark.

I don’t think you have met guy no 2 yet.

You don’t have to wear yellow, you can have the color visible in your home, like a painting with yellow in it, or yellow pillows or a blanket etc.

I’ll have a look at the possible moving.

I too love vanilla. Sephora has a really cheap (it does not smell cheap), but great vanilla. Seriously, when I wear it people tell me “you smell soo good” several times a day (even people I don’t know, like taxi drivers etc)…

Harley, what do you think of the perfume “Green Tea” by Elizabeth Arden?

Sorry the perfume is from Byredo…it’s called Blanche.

Hey girls <3

Sherri, I guess see how it goes with the fwb. It doesn’t sound like you’re invested, so it might be fun.

I’m doing really well thanks :) I realised when Maria asked me what colour hair S has that I hadn’t mentioned him in ages (weeks?!). I actually asked that I be over him (via the law of attraction), and I think it worked. I still get pangs every now and then, but I know I need to let go of him if I want to have space in my life for the right man.

Serena, I hardly saw any of ABQ when I was there – I was at a film festival so basically saw the insides of theatres, bars and hotels :P It didn’t strike me as a particularly exciting place. I’m spending a few days in LA on my way back though, which will be cool :)

Maria, thank you for the reading btw! I completely forgot to say thank you. And ha – my bedroom is painted yellow! I choose the colour… but now I’m sick of it. I want white walls again… clean, fresh, bright…

I know it’s silly, but the man part made me feel a little sad. i only want to meet “the guy” now… I’m 32… I want to share the rest of my life with someone. I actually met a cute guy at my yoga studio two weeks ago, who I go to the same class with. I haven’t spoken much to him, but he looks at me a lot, and he’s struck up conversation with me both times I’ve met him. He has a really nice vibe – very positive, friendly. No idea what industry he’s in.

I spent all this evening researching tattoo designs! I’ve literally been planning this tattoo for months, and I still have no idea what I want….

Harley…… your advice is good. I won’t go to the concert. Why would he be suffering withdrawal? I never had the sense he really cared about me. I was the one that did all the caring. lol

Maria…..any time a reading feels right. I appreciate it, no worries!

Ha, I’m not making a secret of it anymore ;) For years I was ashamed that I wanted a boyfriend… now I am open about it. I definitely want a solid man in my life. Saying that, anything beyond getting chatting up would be welcomed right now. I actually get chatted up practically every time I teach yoga and have a male student in the class. I think the exercise excites them ;) I’m sure there are better things to come… now that I’m working on changing my beliefs.

I forgot to mention – the yoga guy has dark hair and eyes! I don’t think he’s in my industry though; got the sense he was corporate.

Vi,

That is possible..he also is very obsessive, a person of ritual and habits. I’ve thought about how he was just used to me being around.

But your point is a good one. If he wanted me to do something for him, and I didn’t, he’d pout. If I did something for him, he’d get euphoric.

Morning girls <3

Yup Serena, you simply don’t mess with Lisbeth… or me (I love that book/film by the way… girl power to the max).

The new guy… I found out that he has a boat on the same island as I/my family has a holiday house on… and he’s supposed to pull it out of the sea this coming weekend or the next… soo, I might go there and check it/him out…

Actually Harley, there are a lot of similarities between Sweden and Ireland – like you we believe in faries and lepricons, we love to sing and dance, and running naked in the streets (or anywhere) – pretty much normal behavior here too…

You are so welcome Vi <3

I totally agree white walls are the best… then you can change your room(s) with pillows, blankets, paintings etc. easily and whenever you feel like it.

Regarding houses and moving, I see a whitish and a brick colored house. The whitish is the better choice. If your house is white – stay, if it’s brick colored – a move to a white house would be a good choice (if such a house appears). If your house is brown or some other color, again chose a white house over a brick colored one if/when you move.

By the same business field, I meant the artistic/creative field, and not necessarily the film industry… and the reading wasn’t that far into the future, so your “the one” might show up sooner than you think…

Last, I’m a bit curious about something… was there ever a tiny spark/tension between you and “D”?

Vi, you can move from a white house to another, much better, white house… (or just listen to your gut, it will help you make the right decision).

D… is your co-worker… the nice, good energy one who enjoys eating loads of fat :-D

Thank you Serena! Lisbeth may be a level or two above me though, at least when it comes to killing people with a nail gun and force tattooing them.

There’s another trilogy in the same genre ((Swedish crime/Stockholm noir), that you might like if you liked the Lisbeth books. It’s “Easy Money”, “Never Fuck Up” and “Life Deluxe” by Jens Lapidus.

There’s no female hero in his books, but I really like them anyway, so much so that I might even forgive him for (originally) being a lawyer.

Speaking of tattoos, Vi, is yours gonna be an image or a word/sentence?

Good morning divas :D

Maria – Crawfish parties, musician FWB/bf?? boat ride buddy … u go girl!!!

Harley – I hope you are feeling better. Is it house hunting day today?? I too want to buy a house but have other stuff that needs my attention 1st :(

Serena – Hope u r doing well. Yep, learn to throw out the unwanted/people who bring u down. But then u also need to open urself up to the new people to come into ur life to replace them.

Vi – Go for it and make lots of goo goo eyes at Yoga bear. Use mascara and then u can flutter those eyes at him ;) …. I don’t remember a D … tell us about him Vi

Ann – Keep away from gambler guy …. he is ur poison

Yesterday was great with FWB. I think I missed his company quite a bit. We had so much of catching up to do. I told him all about my bachelorette party, zip lining, helicopter ride, family functions and wedding, my parents visit …. whew. And had an amazing kissing and making out session with him. I totally needed the stress relief ;). He is a sweet guy but still has a lot of growing up to do. I can totally be a kid around him bec he is a kid himself LOL. I wont be surprised if we spontaneously started playing tag in a parking lot but that wouldn’t happen as he has a bad knee :D Both of our birthdays are coming up next week but we both are quite busy to meet up next week so have decided to meet the week after to celebrate our birthdays and lets see what else. ;)