Nothing ever happens

Harley…I hope you are having a blast.

Sherri, the 38 yr old didn’t feel right from the start for me. Serious runners are solitary creatures, I’ve never met one whom I liked.

Maria, Cleo, everyone else, you’re all so damn cool.

Mel, your guy is being a drama queen, I don’t have a good vibe about him either. If he attempts reconciliation you will always know he has one foot out the door.

Celeste, yes Normal Guy is really normal. I don’t know how to act. He’s very strong emotionally. I find that he wants me to lean on him for support if I need to, and I’ve never, ever, ever, had that in any kind of relationship, even with my regular friends. I am always the lean-ee. I don’t know how to be the lean-er. But, time will tell. I’m really very relaxed about this. I’m genuinely enjoying him, it’s not even like I am telling myself to enjoy…it’s just happening.

On a bad note, my dad was rushed to the hospital late last night. He is not coherent, and was found in the bathroom, and had hit his head. They are trying to figure out what caused what. He is 78, with lots of health issues. Ugh. My mom is a wreck. I am going to the hospital shortly.

Sherri…..thank you for your kind words.

Yes, this dating thing is goofy. It just is. If you know you are not dating the guy, he may end up being a good friend. In that capacity he might be a perfect fit, as he is handy. Haa.

Ann, so sorry to hear about your dad. Hugs <3

Normal guy sounds like a total rock. And a keeper.

Sherri, 38 yr old seems to be a good guy… but I agree with Ann, runners are a bit… weird (depending on how hooked they are).

Harl, I checked out Buchenbeuren… very small and picturesque… you’ll definitely be the main act this week… Frank is an idiot if he doesn’t show up… and enjoy the show…

I love that you bought “wine and water”… no point in wasting money on food lol…

Businessmen in suits… hmm… usually not my type of men… but I agree, they CAN be quite sexy…

Me… I’m looking forward to the best sex I ever had tomorrow… (or at least in top 5) (no pressure, Orlando)…

Happy happt Friday and weekend girl <3

Happy Halloween everyone!!

My 7 year old has gone as a w I t c h to school … she did not want to dress up as a princess though she has a princess costume as in her words “she has never ever dressed up as anything scary her whole life!!” RFOL (her whole life of 7 years ;) hahahaha). My 3 year old is going as a giraffe for Halloween in the evening and the 7 year old as a cow … nice warm costumes so that is good. Their dad is taking them trick or treating this year.

I am dressed up as a cow girl and at work right now :D . For the Halloween party I am going as a Ninja but lets see how it looks. If I don’t look that great, I will go as a cow girl.

Harley … may be find another german ;)

The girls in the office as saying I look like “Ranger Kara” from TVO … check it out :D

Just posting an update for Harley on her trip….

So far, no Frank showings. :-/ She’s garnering LOTS of attention though, especially last night in her red fishtail dress! lol Saw her pics…holy cleavage!! No wonder she’s the 7th Wonder of the town.
Her friends Michel and Ralf have made appearances, and tonight she’s having dinner with Ralf, who she thinks MIGHT try and make a pass. lol All in all though, she’s having a good time, and meeting lots of new people.
As soon as she has a stronger internet connection, or possibly when she makes it back home, I’m sure she’ll give a more thorough, detailed update.

Thanks Pheebs for updating as I asked. Anyway….am up at bus to go visit my other mate. I hope I do not end up pregnant or kidnapped and put to work in a brothel before I leave this bloody country ! My mate Mark just invited me back for 10th Dec onwards but think I will give it a miss….am laughing my ass off about Frank….but my heart still feeling g a bit fragile. This is the kick in the ass I need to move on !
Celeste. …good luck.

Maria. ..hope you not missing him too bad.

Mel.. hope my antics cheering you up

Sherri….sounds fun

Off to a party in Dublin November 14th…what’s the odds I mean what looks like a perfect try nice Irish guy…..and he turns out to be in the IRA !

Ah sure…I’m still crazy about him….can’t get my head round it….but as we all know. …I need my head examining anyway ! I think if he’s in touch in a few mths….I am going to send him some explicit xx xx xx xx rated sexting and then tell him fuck off….he’ll be consumed with rage..turned ON..and will know how it feels to be treated like shite ! I’ll be stuck in his mind for years to come ! All my exes tell me… I’m unforgetable !

Harley – its a good thing you came to know and that he didn’t meet up …

UPDATE! UPDATE!! UPDATE!!!

OMG girls I have turned into this crazy person that I do not recognise. Luckily I have not unleashed her onto the poor unsuspecting guy but actually using two of my friends to vent it out with. And they have expressed shock because they do not recognise this person I have become!!

So after the Tuesday date with the 38 year old, I was fine and when he sent the text I had written him off and taken him off the roster because he himself told me that he is not available at least for the time being. I met him again at the Halloween party and I was very aware where he was all the time. I had fun at the party but also made sure that I was not ignoring him but at the same time that I was not following him all the time. He also was playing it quite cool. He was actually spending quite a bit of time with this other girl but I later came to know that she had requested that of him as she liked this other guy in the group and wanted him (38 year old) to act as a buffer. Towards the end he came and we were chatting for quite a bit as to our likes and dislikes in movies, capital punishment etc. etc. When I left the party, he said he will message me and to keep in touch. I was still fine at this stage.

The next day he messaged me in the afternoon saying that he is going to be in my city to run a couple of errands and whether I would like to meet up. Since I was in another City at that time, I told him that I would be available in the evening. So he told me that we could may be meet up and go for dinner. I said ok but I my mind I was confused as to whether this was a date or just a hanging out or what was it. I asked him to pick me up from my place and he agreed. He picked me up and we went for dinner and we were chatting and exchanging quite a bit of information. Mostly from his side as I did not really want to share about myself yet as we were not really dating till his personal stuff is fixed right?

Anyway what he told me was that he is going to be a father towards the end of December/early January. That he dated the mother for just a week and they had unprotected sex which he admitted he was stupid to do and she got pregnant. He said they did try to see if they could make a relationship but it felt that he was not making her happy and she was screaming at him all the time. Also he doesn’t want to be in a relationship with someone just because they have a kid together which I said yes, you don’t want to do that. I did tell him that it also could be the crazy hormones that she was experiencing and that he was right that he should wait and see till the baby comes and where he is headed then. Because of the baby he also has decided to stay in the region though he got offered a job somewhere else. He did make some comments to me which gave me clues that he does find me attractive. After dinner on my behest, he took me for a drive in his awesome car and then dropped me back home. I thanked him with a hug. After a bit when I reached home, I couldn’t get him out of my mind and just sent him a text thanking him for sharing what he did with me and telling him that I liked hanging out with him. To this he replied that he enjoys spending time with me too and that I am a nice person and he felt safe sharing this with me.

Whole of yesterday I have not been able to get him out of my mind and towards the evening I just sent him a text saying how was his running as he had a running clinic on Sunday and that it was such a beautiful sunny day. He has not replied back to that text and it drove me crazy enough to contact two of my friends to vent to them as I thought it was safer than blowing up his phone and alarming him. I am much more calmer this morning and I have not contacted him. I really like him and would like to get to know him better even if we have to hang out as friends for now. I can’t help but feel good that he is in this situation as he is such a good catch that I was wondering as to why he wanted to date a single mom when he could have had dated any woman he wanted (I know stupid of me to think that right?) But when I came to know his story it kind of made sense as he would now be a dad as well right?

I am not capable of just cutting him off as I do not want to. Or going no contact as I do not want to. But I have decided to not text/contact him again till he contacts me. And a part of me so wants him to contact me. I know I will be meeting him at the meet up group but there I have the buffer of many other people.
Another thing I wonder about is that I have always been way too subtle in my cues for men. As in if a guy is not good at reading body language, or really understanding girls, they would be kept guessing as to whether I like them or not. I am always upfront with guys whom I am not that into. So it’s only the guys whom I like are left in that confusion.

Last October I was in the same state with the October guy. And this October I met this guy. What is it with October that makes me crazy?? Can anyone really make sense of what is going thru my head right now? Because I sure cannot :(

SHERRI….just have to throw this in there.

I had the SAME SITUATION with my guy who I wasn’t exactly ‘dating’ yet last October. Towards the middle of the month, he let me know that he was going to be a father at the end of December. She wasn’t exactly a gf, but at one point had been a roommate, and they were casually sleeping with each other…and she got pregnant. He found out a week after he completely cut off contact with her b/c she went a little nutty on him b/c he didn’t want a relationship with him. He and I met (quite accidentally) at the end of April last year…

I was totally taken aback, b/c only a week before he had told me that he thought we’d make a great couple, and then he dropped this bomb on me. My thoughts were that b/c we were only VERY casually involved, he originally didn’t think it mattered if I knew or not…but then something changed with him and his feelings for me, and he felt he had to tell me.

I asked if there was any chance of him getting back together with her, and he said that they had tried during the summer (also unbeknowest to me, b/c we weren’t really doing anything more than texting randomly), and it there was no way in Hell that they would ever work. They fought all the time, and he couldn’t stand her. After the baby was born, he spent a LOT of time with her at her parent’s house helping take care of the baby after work and classes….but it was just about the baby. But she’s still bitter and pissed that he doesn’t want to be with her, and has threatened to try and keep their son away from him. Luckily he won’t put up with that crap, and sets her straight. But it DOES cause trouble for him, which stresses him out more on top of everything else he’s dealing with….such as his financial difficulties (which are now improving b/c he got a better job two months ago), taking college courses three days a week, and working 10-12 hour work days.

I felt a hit of deja vu when I read your story. I had to share my bit with you, b/c IF you do get involved with him, just know that no matter how much he might like you, etc, you are potentially getting into an emotional mind f*ck. I probably should have run back then, but he had made it clear that he wanted to develop something with ME….and here I am….still kind of on the backburner while his world still spins a little out of control…..

Too right Phoebe!

Its all about me now! Just gonna try and enjoy life!

I’m getting out with my band friends again, having some dates, going in the village pantomime. Its all happening!

Hey girls !

Harl, hahaha lmfao… screw Frank and Germany too… You’ll have to find a new fav country… perhaps some warm island in the sun!!? I can totally see you on a sunbed with a Margarita in your hand… surrounded by at least 10 beach bums… lol… that would make a great next chapter of your ongoing book “The adventures of Harley”…

Thanks Phoebe, for your updates re Harl (and I like reading your updates re you too of course)…

Sherri, sounds like you really like this guy… it’ll be interesting to hear how it all develops… keep us updated…

Of course it’s not too late for you to join us buttercup. WELCOME :-D … and tell us all about your date tomorrow…

I had a great “last time” with O Sat and Sun… we didn’t speak about the future but he gave me a bracelet (HIS bracelet, the one he was wearing) (I was looking at it and said “this is so nice” and then he took it off and put it around my wrist)… and he said “I’ll call you” when we said goodbye… so, who knows… I really like him and he really likes me… and some day we might just take it to the next level, someday, but not now… I’ll miss him of course, but I’ll be OK… I’ll be more than OK, I’ll be fine… what will be will be…