Nothing ever happens

Harley- Sounds like you had a blast! You looked absolutely stunning. Any potential suitors to go on dates with?

Ann- I understand how scary that can be, and I am keeping him in my thoughts. I am sorry you have to go through this! And I am glad normal guy is being a rock for you right now. That is great he is talking about the future. Sounds like he really likes you aww!

My update- Well the past two weeks have been good with Preston. We had a great two Halloween parties last week and this week. Then this past Saturday I was a bit hungover so we just layed in his bed all day till around 8 p.m. then afterwards I went home and he texting me asking to see a movie with him, but I felt to sick still. Yesterday we hung out at night and had a good time, and then he sprung the relationship talk on me asking where I see it going. I was shocked lol, so I said IDK. I feel bad right now that I couldn’t get out how I felt. I asked him how he felt and he said the same thing. I mean we are in an exclusive relationship already, so I don’t know if he is now wanting to take the step to become bf and gf. It is all quite confusing. Is should have answered him more clearly uhhhg. I have actually now fallen in love with him, but I would dare not say I love you at this moment in time. Also, I have broken out with some pimples around my mouth after the drinking and Halloween makeup, so I really want that to clear up before I see him again.

Hi all.. am drunk…just in bed. With girlie mate having a great night. so…I texted him for closure. He replied straight away and said he’s got to sort his family out and can’t leave them for me and that he thinks often of the time we had together. I replied. …Thanks. I appreciate the answer …He replied he’s sorry. ..We’d a great time. .He wishes me the best and perhaps we’ll see each other sometime .I have not bothered replying as he’s just trying to salve his conscience. I am drunk as a coot. ..but relieved to know. I shall not Contact him again. In bed now.

glad to hear all Ok with everyone else. Maria. ..stay strong. I’ll be grand as usual. ..In time….If the hangover don’t kill me !

Thanks Harley lol, I hope you don’t have a hangover in the morning love! I am just all in my head now about why he would ask after us getting back together after him needing space for 2 days due to all that drama that occurred (that I previously posted) and us dating for 8 months where he sees the relationship going.. AHH. Guys just confuse me.

I mean where do I see the relationship going not he*

Harley, getting trapped in one’s own head is maddening…you are free now.

Cleo….thank you for the energy you are sending out into the universe for my father. Hugs.

I am 55 years old and I woke up to 2 large zits on my chin. WTF.

And no problem Ann , I am more spiritual, so I can’t say I can pray for him, but I am sending out that positive energy you stated because you deserve it. You are a wonderful lady, and that is so traumatic!

Sending positive thoughts ur way Ann … how are YOU doing?

Hi Sherri…thank you for the good energy. :)

I’m trying to process my dad’s illness mostly. He has not been in good health for about 5 years, mostly vascular issues, and in my mind I had imagined a stroke taking him. This pancreatic cancer thing has thrown me for a loop. I am at peace though. He said he will fly with the birds. He does not appear to be frightened.

So, that’s my main focus. As far as the dating thing goes, I am on pause, except for Normal Guy. He is just simply wonderful. I don’t know how to handle it, so I am just going with the flow. He takes the wheel so to speak, he talks about future plans, making sure I’m ok, wanting me to be around, but not in a needy way like Needy Guy was. He just seems to dig me. I have to say its really fun to be with him. When he looks at me, it feels like he is thinking he’s the lucky one. Time will tell.

Needy Guy texted me out of the blue. He had heard about my dad. I didn’t respond, as conversation just has not helped with him, as far as understanding I don’t want to commit to him…..then he texted me one word. Saudade. I had to look it up, it is a Portugese word that doesn’t quite exist in English….kind of means intense nostalgia for something that was, but won’t be again. Ugh.

Anyway, I’m doing ok. Gambler Guy is, incredibly, still on my mind, but with time I am understanding more of it now….my compulsive need to save him was destructive to me and him.

Harley…ROCK ON.

I HAD A SNOG!!!!

The date went well! Sat in the pub chatting for a couple hours, then I went back to his for a cuppa, and left with a kiss on the doorstep!

Seeing him again Friday. :-)

Snog – slang for a kiss, proper kiss! Not tongues. Long nice kiss :-)

Ha ! I’m good. no hangover ..yet anyway !! not much sleep. travelling back from friends to a small village later near the airport. will probably go stay with my old boss again…say goodbye to the locals. don’t think I will come back anytime soon as need to just have time to myself and not see him till I know I can do friends only. I’m Ok. just bummed it didn’t work out but also delighted I did not settle for less. I will focus on buying new house and job.

Ann. .keep weaning yourself off gambler. ..like me.. it’s been TOO many months now to be STILL the thinking of him . Forget the Portuguese asshole and Ho with new guy. He sounds lovely.. you deserve a good nice guy….We ALL do. And hang in there with your dad. it’s hard but you have to accept like him.

Buttercup. ..This is great news. wonderful to have good attention.

I will continue to rock on and see if I can get into any mischief today !

Ha yams…no… We don’t talk regular. I hooked up with him for 1 night months ago..texted him 3 times. He replied once. I knew him yrs ago. so..I asked him was he into me or not. I got the bullshit line of our night together was great..He thinks of it but he has to sort family problems out and cannot leave them for me …I WAS not asking him to leave his son…language communucation problem. so..I replied. .Thanks for letting me know where I stand. He said I’ll see you sometime….I did not reply as what a shit line of him trying to keep the door open yet at the same time….definately telling me he’s just not that into me. so yep….I’m moving on. I do t need a guy who won’t meet up and dies not want me longterm. I’m glad i finally know where I stand. and in fairness. ..He was trying to be nice by not meeting up and he had the balls finally to reply to me and tell me Ho entry he don’t want a relationship with me.

so.. .Onwards !