Said something out of anger.

Been with my girl for about 3 months and things have been great. She has been understanding and patient. We don’t spend a whole lot of time together. About every two weeks. Only because I have my 1 year old son every other weekend and whenever it’s the weekend I don’t have him we are together having a blast. She is patient with that. I want to spend more time but during the week it’s hard because of work schedules. I’ve done wrong to her toward the beginning but she forgave me and I’ve been making it up to her. Skip to today the last time I saw her was week before last and we were suppose to see each other today but I had a last minute thing with work I had to handle. I was running around trying to get things done. I forgot to give her a call to give her some updates on what was going on. Hours later she ends up texting me “We can do another time, since you’re busy” I completely flipped out and projected onto her. She called me and I was rude to her when I first picked up the phone. I was out still doing things for people at work so I was annoyed. I knew she was just being considerate and meant no harm. Out of anger I said to her “everything we do together only benefits you” the change in her voice almost killed me but I didn’t notice until the phone call ended. She was literally so excited for us to go see a few Christmas lights and go to my house and make gingerbread houses, eat and watch Christmas movies. She bought the food and everything we needed even matching pjs. It was something so small she wanted to do with me. Everything we do is so much fun and I love it. She comes up with the ideas for dates because I just can’t think of a lot. I’ve been single for a long long time so I’m adjusting. Once again her patience is awesome. So me saying that to her hurt her and mad her feel like I don’t really want to do what she wants. I’ve tried to tell her sorry. She just says that she will not tell me anything else she wants to do she will let me decide, she will allow me to communicate how I chose and she will just adjust to me all aspects. I feel like crap. Out date tonight was canceled due to my attitude and me taking my work anger completely out on her. I was very disrespectful on that phone call. She is hurt and really means she won’t mention a date she wants ever and that she will let me pick and how ever long it take me to take her on one. I’m sorry this is so long but I’m bothered that I hurt her. Advice on what I should do.