Says He Loves Me Then Disappeared… What Is Going On?

Okay so I got to know this guy last year from a mutual friend. We started texting only at first, and I thought he was just being friendly and stuff. But as days went by he started to initiate texts a lot and we started texting very frequently, even late at night until the sun rises. And it was very… comforting, to have someone to talk to about everything and nothing all at once. We even ended up calling each other up and talking for hours at 3 or 4 or 5 in the morning. He even called me ‘beautiful’ a couple of times. And long story short, earlier this year, some drama happened and we established the fact that we were just friends and he said he was ‘just being nice’. And to say I was surprised was an understatement. I mean, wtf??? But then I moved on from him because I was like “okay, if just friends is what you want to be then just friends it is”. And JUST when I started to move on from him he started to be all attentive and texting me a lot but I didn’t read too much into it.

And then came one night where I was really, REALLY upset about my exam results and he suddenly became so caring about me. He said he wanted to bring me somewhere ‘with a nice view’ and so he did. So we hung out that night. He was being very touchy-feely, but not in a bad way, it was just weird I guess since he kind of friendzoned me. Anyway, next thing I know he tried to kiss me, and I rejected him because 1) I figured he was high so… yea, and 2) um he said we were just friends??? Hello???

Well anyway after that night we kind of got closer with each other and he finally confessed to me (which still puzzles me to this day, when did he even developed feelings for me). So we’ve kissed some and hugged some and went out but we weren’t official or anything, but we did establish the fact that we were ‘dating’. At least that’s what he said when I asked. A few months later he told me he loved me. And he’s been saying it a few times after that but I never said it back, but I reassured him saying that I do feel it, I just needed time to say it back. And I guess that was kind of… selfish of me and I regret not saying it to this day. Anyway, last time we met was two months ago, and everything was going great at the time, he told me he loved me, he was being really sweet and stuff, but after that he kind of just… shut down. See, this guy, he likes to blame himself for a lot of things and he doesn’t take problems very well. I don’t know if it’s depression, but it sure seems like it. He’s told me before that I deserved better than him because he’ll screw things up eventually. Back to the story, after the last time we met, he hasn’t been calling me and his texts have been decreasing a lot, and when I asked about it he said he was busy and he’s facing problems after problems and that he needed some time alone, which hurt me very deeply. After that I kept on telling him that if he needed someone to talk to then I’d be there for him.

He did reply to some of my texts, as little as he did, until this one night I called him to ask if he was okay and he didn’t answer (I knew for a fact he wasn’t asleep) and he didn’t even call me back. I texted him a few times after that and I got nothing. AT ALL. And it’s frustrating the hell out of me. Now I just don’t know what to do. He’s pushing me away and left me hanging without an explanation or any closure whatsoever. He won’t even respond to my “are you okay”s? It’s like I don’t even know this guy anymore. I feel so stupid and pathetic right now, for I was always there for him, and he can’t even seem to appreciate that. I don’t know what’s going on.