Sex after not seeing each for months

OK…so I have a friend who I have a sexual relationship with. That is all we are and it has been like that for about 1.5 years we knew this going in. When I met him I was coming out of an abusive relationship reason it was only FWB!

I have started dating and he knows that. Recently I told him I was seeing someone and I told him I was going to feel guilty about seeing him and this other guy. I also told him that eventually I would want a normal relationship with a guy and he said he understood and that I deserved that. Normally we would see each other once every week or 2 weeks but after we spoke he backed off for several weeks ( about 3 exactly).

I never contact him and…but our physical attraction is unbelievable! I have done more with him than all my ex boyfriends… sexually.

Things did not work out with the guy I was seeing…but I never reached out to my FWB, instead he reached out to me this weekend and asked me how I was and how were things with my new boyfriend. I didn’t quite say it was over instead I told him I never called this guy “my boyfriend” (which I never did). He told me he thought things were getting serious and to let him know if I ever wanted to see him again..and I said of course I did.

So we saw each other yesterday and the sex was amazing after not seeing each other for a month the sexual frustration was obvious especially from him! I know nothing is going to come from this relationship and I told him that (that was the something more convo we had.

Yet I am having such a hard time finding someone who is 100% committed…I was very disappointed about this last guy ….but it helps that I can see this FWB and have that sexual intimacy knowing it is what it is.

Is it bad to continue a FWB when your looking for real love?