Should I text a ghoster…we remain friends sort of

We have mostly communicated via online since he works on ship. I have only seen him twice but both times were full of passion, chemistry and made me feel alive. We have been friends for 6 months and spoke often. Not every day but convos we great. The last night we were together I got really drunk and kinda made a fool of myself and went off on him a bit (details will be spared but again I was drunk. I just felt like he was leading me on and got defensive) We didn’t have sex but there was some touching. Also this was really nothing in my eyes just a super hot guy but now I think I’ve grown fond of him.

After our few days of passion he went off shore again (he isn’t from here so he can’t just get off and walk around) and we agreed to meet 5 days later in which he ghosted me. I had reached out to confirm and he never opened my message. He finally wrote me 4 hours after our meet up time and he pretty much made an excuse why he couldn’t meet. He asked how I was doing and then gave me excuse…..I responded with a its cool, been busy, etc message and that was that. He read and never wrote back. I have not contacted him since and we remain friends. Sighhhh

With this corona virus thing I really just wanted to reach out and just wish him good luck since he’ll be off shore for 30 days now. Is that stupid to do? Will this make me look even more foolish? I really regret acting the way I did that night and wonder if that’s what turned him away so I have kept the door a crack opened for him since then. But I have also read if a guy looks you he usually hangs around even after something dumb. It’s been 4 weeks now. I am really debating on reaching out…someone please stop me if this sounds like a major mistake.