Trying to get back with my ex – not sure what to make of this?

Hi All –

As the title states, I am trying to get back with my ex – I am the one who broke things off.
It has been almost 3 months of no contact, outside of an email that I sent to which he did respond to. I am really determined to rekindle things because I truly feel he is the love of my life/my soulmate.

I left because I felt things were at a bit of a standstill and I was putting in a lot of the effort. He did inform me he was going through a lot of things, which he explained to me. (I will add, some of these things I was unaware of, which was upsetting to me – none were related to our relationship. I was upset because I always confide in him and want(ed) him to do the same). I wasn’t willing to hear it, said a lot of not-so-nice things and left. I’ve been sitting with my thoughts, and the ramifications of my decisions and really regret what has transpired. So, after self-reflection/work, I sent an apology email. He responded within the hour, saying that he appreciated the email & that I had worked on myself, but that he needed some more time and wasn’t healed himself yet. Do I take this as a good thing? Admittedly, I am not good at ‘reading’ men.

I’m also confused because he will not respond to my texts, but did respond to my email. When things got more serious, he kind of checked out entirely. I felt like I didn’t know who I was interacting with anymore. Regardless, I still love him, still want to move forward with him and still see a future with him. I expressed all these things in my email and he never acknowledged them directly, but didn’t say anything against/negative toward them either. He did say he was dealing with mental health challenges (prior to him informing me, that was unbeknownst to me, or I would have stuck around/been understanding – I thought he lost interest in me).

I’m just confused entirely, and don’t know how to proceed other than to provide him with the space he asked for. I respect boundaries, so I’m doing that right now, but I do also really want to reconcile.