What is all this? Can't read him

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Sweetheart I was in a relationship for two years. It was after two years that my boyfriend told me we weren’t even dating. That he had a girlfriend and they just broke up and he is not ready for commitment. I lost my virginity to him and did an abortion for him. It all started just the way yours did. He was nice sweet and gentle. I was very protective of my emotions but he was so sweet and romantic I fell head over heels for him.
I’d read several meanings into his texts and how long he took to text back or why he didn’t text back and the relationship became my burden. Eventually he saw my desperation and absolutely took advantage of it. I’m a 6ft 1 talk girl and I’m very attractive. Most people over emphasize my physical appearance just to paint a picture, I don’t mean to brag. This guy absolutely wrecked me. He beat down my self Esteem and made me feel really needy and clingy and even told me to my face. Every bad thing he said and did to me was very gently and seemingly unintentional. The summary is that it all started like this, like yours.
I think you should sincerely forget this guy and cut him off, if he tries to reach out again explain your insecurities. Only if he really tries to reach out after you have gone away. When a guy likes u sincerely he will make out time for you. No human being is just so helplessly busy. And d part where you said he was online and didn’t text you, sweetheart that guy is not so into you. Make sure you pay attention to those signs. He isn’t too busy to be online, but he is too busy to chat you up. His attention is divided and I’m not sure you wanna share him. When he sees you are in love with him, he will capitalize on the fact that you told him at first that you didn’t want a romantic relationship and he would gear you up to chase him. My own case the guy said he loved me and I didn’t love him as much and he fell out of love, butt then he stayed back and enjoyed all d benefits of a relationship while avoiding the responsibilities.
Don’t stay in any god damn relationship that makes u overly anxious and stressed out! It will NEVER end well. Oh yes and it will end eventually. You deserve a man that can text you. That can stay up at night talking to you if his day is sooo busy. You deserve a man that will chase you without reservation. A man that will show u how crazy he is about you. If he is getting you to like him too much by being romantic, he should follow up with compliments, appreciation and real sacrifices! Don’t let him stand you up again! Never again! No matter how nice he pretends to be. If you let him draw you into a relationship and drain you, you will have yourself to blame.
My current boyfriend is a lot older than me. Has 3 jobs. He is super busy and makes out time for me. He calls me, tell me he loves me and looks after me. I know I’m beautiful cos I have a mirror but since I met him, I feel like a fairy queen! I feel extra gorgeous. I love him a lot also which is very important but this guy is my healing and consolation from my past.
Sweetheart I can’t say this enough, the fact that you feel overly anxious shows you should call it quits. Leave before you get burned. Sorry if I sound paranoid but I went through this hell and torture for 2 good years! And my experience is a replica of yours. I may be wrong though, your case may be different but you really should be careful.

Wow this was a very interesting story.. curious how the ending went? He seemed very interested at first until he saw the neediness then backed down. Hope you found a genuine guy.

I apologize, I just saw this was a very old thread and now responded to half of the first page but since it has recently been updated or so it seemed I will try to read through it and find out what happened. Interesting story!